Happy Birthday Natalie Wolff.
You’re my best friend, my wife, and my love.
You make it all worth it.
…and 30 looks pretty damn good on you.
Lush.
Cynic.
Lesbian.
Living in Portland in a floating house.
Meet me for beers on The Dock of the Gay.
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Why’d you have to be so cute
It’s impossible to ignore you
Oh must you make me laugh so much?
It’s bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap_______________________________________________
This is for my wife. When were falling for each other we used to stay up all night just watching TV on the couch while we tried not to fall in love. She made me a mixed tape (an ACTUAL tape) with this song on it. Whenever I hear it I feel like young us. I remember hearing it the first time on that tape and thinking it was all about us…
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On penetrating Netflix, or at least getting to first base.
So I’m meeting my wife at her work, and Netflix is a fortress penetrated by no one, so I’ve never been inside to see Natalie being a boss.
Well, I just happened to look in a window and there she is standing up in a room full of people clearly pissed the fuck off and making her presence known.
Like.
A.
Boss.I had to stop myself from running up to the window and pressing my boobs up against it…because clearly that would be the natural instinct of anyone, right???? No? Just me? Well, still…
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Last night for bedtime relaxation Natalie read me the 25 best auto corrects . This was towards the end and she was laughing so hard she could barely get the words out. As for me, I had to keep getting up and going to the bathroom because I was convinced I was about to pee the bed.
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Worth it all.
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Bathroom mirror message from my wife:
This is OUR year. We will have fun, laugh, kiss, connect, talk, fuck, smile, snuggle, grow, explore, bond, discover, experience, wonder, hug, evolve, make-out, eat, drink, feel, sleep, shop, ponder, plan, vacation, visit, cook, remember, host, debate, decorate, find, listen, change, spend, save, and do all of the things we have always wanted to do. 2012, the year of us.
I more than love you,
Your Wife
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Last night over dinner at one of our favorite spots, we decided to change the direction of our focus in this upcoming year.
This time last year we would have thought we’d be pregnant by now. Our focus for all of 2011 was “what’s next?”. This year will be all about what’s right in front of us. 2012 will be about how happy we are right NOW. Today. Forget about what’s next for “our family” that doesn’t yet exist…what’s happening right NOW for the two of us?
We’re going to take those trips we’ve always talked about.
We’re going to lay in bed all day if we want.
We’re going to surprise each other with weekend get away’s and evenings out.
See those girls ridiculously happy in the picture? That was us a few months after I came out…a few weeks after I left my husband, a few days after Natalie moved in with me.
We’re still those girls. Six years later we’re STILL those girls…and this year we’re going to slow down and enjoy being “us” a little more than we did last year.
2011 was the year of “what’s next?” and “when will we get pregnant?” It was a year of planning, and stressing, and feeling frustrated with every outcome.
2012 is The Year Of Us.
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*disclaimer* this post is sappy
Natalie is once again snoring in bed next to me.
Her legs pretzeled around mine.
Her face smashed sweetly against my arm…Merry Christmas to me.
